Be Still

So here I am ...trying with all my heart to be still. When my heart is heavy and my anxiety high being still is the thing I find most difficult. I want to take action and fix my sorry state. I want to be actively engaged to be anywhere other than where I am so why must I be still?

I am reminded of "Be still and know that I am God", I am reminded of "Be still my Heart" and the Zen practice of stillness, allow the thoughts to move past and just rest quietly open and trusting. I am fully aware that only in the stillness will I be able to see clearly. Moving and action blurs my vision.

So I sit allowing myself to hear the world around me, taking note but letting it pass. It is so amazing how many sounds: people talking, the water bubbling in the fish tank, the dogs toe nails on the wood floor, the cars passing, a faint bird, a plane overhead....wow it is amazing that I ever hear any single thing above all this noise. Did I mention the noise in my own head...my words: how long has it been, why am I tuning to one person talking, let go, move on ....Being still is a trip! Worthwhile.

Another day.