While this is not really news today is feels heavy on my heart. Mom is 83 and she has had significant memory loss for the past several years. But suddenly in the last few months she has made a change. She is harder to motivate, more difficult to get out of bed and complains more. She feels "sicky" frequently and I suspect her muscles ache from lack of use. It is sad.
I wonder sometimes, what will I do without Mom. Dad passed a year ago December after several years in a nursing home. But Mom is with me, she has been for some time now. She even moved across country to Los Angeles last June. I watch her, listen to her sighs and while I know that she is blessed with Grandchildren around (one sleeps with her regularly ..sneaky child). I know that she enjoys the family around and she loves the Corgi called Hannah who, as Mom eats less seems to be getting fatter? Still in the moments when I enter her room and she is hard to wake I feel a start, a skip in my heart and for a brief minute feel the reality of her time in this world.
Taking care of Mom is complicated. It is also an honor.
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